Hope for Anxiety, Brokenness, and Depression

I can relate, Friend. I have been broken. I have been broken many times in many ways. I know what it feels like.

I know what it feels like to pretend to have it all together because everyone else needs you to be strong. I know what it feels like to be exhausted, worn, and beaten down. I know what it feels like to be used and abused. Fearful. Anxiety-driven. Numb.

I know what it is like to feel unloved, worthless, ashamed, and rejected. I know what it is like to constantly feel like “I’m not good enough”.

I understand the panic, the doubt, the lack of control, the anger, and the insecurity.

I know what it is like to be surrounded by people, yet still feel completely alone. I know what it is like to cry out of desperation and feel like no one hears me.

I understand, friend. I have been there, and I am here with you today. Let me tell you other things I know.

I now know what it feels like to be full of peace and joy. I know what it feels like to be loved unconditionally. I know what it feels like to have strength that is bigger than me because it is not my own. I know what it is like to be accepted, forgiven, and to have worth. 

I am good enough because Jesus is good enough, and He lives in me. I know what it is like to have our Father God in control. I know what it feels like to have my tears dried, and my ashes turned into beauty. know what it feels like to always have someone who hears me when I call. 

The best part about that, is the someone who hears us, Jesus, also knew what it felt like…

He was rejected, beaten, and falsely accused. He was deserted by his disciples, those that were supposed to be closest to him, when he needed encouragement and strength the most.

People tried to make him feel fearful, worthless, and ashamed, but He knew His worth. He knew that His Father in heaven still loved Him, and He knew that he had worth, purpose, and a place waiting for him in a kingdom not of this dreadful world.

Friend, whatever it is that is causing you heartache, turmoil, and desperation… I have great news for you, today. 

Even more than I can understand your pain, Jesus can. And He is alive today at the right hand of God. He will hear you, and with the Holy Spirit He will intercede for you to the very One seated on the throne.

“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”

‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭41:10‬ ‭NIV‬‬

God is BIGGER! God is GREATER! Our God that spoke our universe into creation…He is bigger and greater than all of your problems. God can turn all of your bad into good! He is merciful, gracious, and full of love, and the sun can rise again and break through your darkness.

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“This is what the Lord says, he who made the earth, the Lord who formed it and established it—the Lord is his name: ‘Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.’”

‭‭Jeremiah‬ ‭33:2-3‬ ‭NIV‬‬

I have seen it happen. It has happened in my life, and in the lives of others. For those broken pieces to be made into a new, beautiful creation, you must first call on Jesus as your Savior and seek forgiveness of your shortcomings. Then, you must submit your life to Him daily and walk in His ways. Surrender to the great plan He has for your life.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

‭‭Jeremiah‬ ‭29:11‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Praise God that He has made a way for us to be redeemed and restored through His Son Jesus!

“But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed.”

‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭53:5‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Let the Father hold you. Let Him heal you and make you new. Let Him bring you out of the darkness into His marvelous light. 

Selah

Searching for a Quiet Mind

Tonight, my mind is full of noise. It is full of questions and ideas. Questions and ideas about the things God wants me to do. Brainstorms, To-Do Lists, email, social media, etc.

Time kept passing by in increments of half hours every time I checked the clock.


Dinner, bathtime, bedtimes all flew by too fast. Now, it is about 10:30. The kids are fast asleep, and I could be too. I should be sleeping.

This is a battle I often fight. One thought leading to another. My daily To-Do List resonating in my mind as I evaluate my performance throughout this day.

Did I clean enough? Was dinner up to par? Are the dishes done? Did I play with the kids enough? Did I love them enough, Lord?

I can do more, Lord, what should I be doing? In my days? In my life?

Then, two and a half hours after contemplating if I was enough today, and what more I should be doing in my life, I remain exhausted. However, exhausted with the beginnings of a plan. A challenge.

A challenge to seek God first every morning. A challenge to implement a true quiet time with the Lord BEFORE my children wake up like bright headlights ready to navigate their days. A challenge to give myself grace by reducing my daily To-Do List, and increase my joy in treasuring simple moments. A challenge to go to bed earlier by having more peace about each blessed day. A challenge to remember He is enough.

Stay tuned for an update on that challenge. I will share as I search for a quiet mind nightly… a peace knowing that I am enough because He is enough, and He lives in me.

Selah